comp apps practice in illustrator

close up ish


 
perspectively how big the first square is


sat for nearly 5 hours. took it like a champ. brad seriously had no idea it was my first tattoo and when i told him that it wasn't afterwards he was in shock how calmly i sat. cuz it hurt like a bitch and he knew it.  hurt the most in the middle and at the end of the process. and when people ask what getting a tattoo feels like, it feels like exactly what it is. a needle poking you in the back six thousand times a minute, being dragged across your skin, back and forth, tugging occassionally. it fucking hurts. but its worth it.  now i just have to deal with it healing over the next three weeks. lots of lotion!

and then back to the chair in the summer for phase two- the bee/honeycomb and possibly three- the color for them. 

by the way, that was exhausting. five hours of dealing with pain, and keeping yourself calm takes a lot more work than it may seem.

Being home rocks. The anything Zac related, the food and the motorcycle riding with dad part I mean. Yesterday my dad and i went to the flea market and bought my nephew a mini dauschund. Little boy 9wks old, pure breed, only a hundred dollars. Black with brown underside. Cute-ums indeed.

And my tattooing starts Thursday! Gonna sit for 3 or 4 hours and get the first part finished hopefully.

Something else made me feel good today though too. Matty called me on my cell and in a drunken playful couple's fighting way told me that he and Ty missed me. Its always nice to know someone other than your boyfriend and family misses you.

My drawing prof asked me and about three other people from our class today to make the decision by next week whether we wanted to follow the syllabus for the rest of the quarter and do three more projects, or if we (the four of us) wanted instead to work on a 30x40ish drawing in charcoal or graphite for about 100 hours of work of a crazy mother of all still lifes for the rest of the quarter to enter into a contest next quarter. It means we wont use most of the rest of our paper we bought, or the pastels, but it is a chance to have the school buy our piece from us and use it as a poster, or just win some monies/ awards. For the past three years someone from his class has won and he has judged these things before.

So yay. I am one of the best in the class. Joyful joy-ness time.  He also asked the four of us to enter a portfolio of 5 pieces into a contest due Feb 15th too.  Hence I was at class until 8:15 tonight >.< learning to make a nice portfolio.

My pencil drawing is coming out well too. It amazed me because I haven't done graphite since 10th grade except for contour drawings. And when we hung them up today to do working crit, mine was the first pointed out by him and the class that it was coming along really well and stood out against the rest. Lol, he said no stumping on this drawing, but during class today he came over and handed me a stump and was like don't tell anyone, but just use it and go really slowly and tediously with it so it comes out right... because typically he thinks graphite stumped out looks like crap, but he complimented me on it after i was about half way done with one of the cameras I was doing. I'm so glad he let me because before I did that part looked like crap, I don't care what everyone was saying. And I'm glad he trusted me to pull it off too. I like that part a lot now.  The metal actually looks like metal, and the clock looks more like it has glass over the front of it.  Now I need to finish the aluminum cans and the shadows on the wall mostly.

I promise I will have pictures up of it by the end of the week. Sunday I'll have it finished for sure (since its due Monday, and I'll be out of town Friday through Saturday night or possibly Sunday afternoon-ish.

Thank you again Hillary for the icons. They are awesome. <3

I leave Friday afternoon for Tally, then Saturday for Savannah. I have mixed emotions on going back. I most definitely want to go back because I love the school and all my friends there. Savannah is a happy place for me. But the break has been so long that, even though I didn't feel it up until this past week, home is starting to feel like home again. And I am realizing, but it isn't setting in and won't until Friday when I say goodbye againn, that I wont see Zac for even longer this time, and when I do its only a week in between and then another length of time before we really get to hang out. Also the few friends that I have seen while home I know I am going to miss this time while gone. And another couple of them who have me confused.. in different ways. I don't know what to do about them. BWah...

The rain is finally gone I think. No more headaches this week hopefully. But it is getting colder now. Yay for coats and hats.

I need to go see Brad... maybe he finished my tattoo drawing? Hopefully... I would like to start it but it doesn't look like I will so far... He is doing awesome though with the drawing.

    Zachary completely made it up to me for the not so enjoyable birthday and days surrounding it today. Around 12:30 he came over to my house with gerber daisy bouquet in hand, and then proceeded to take me out to get a salad and smoothie for lunch since dinner was going to be big, then to panama city to the maze where we spent about an hour getting lost and running around. Dead ends were fun. Seeing as every dead end we both took together we stopped for a kiss. lol, this is why it took us so long. Anyway, afterwards we had a very enjoyable car ride back through seaside and down 30A. Its so nice not to have others in the car with you for a good 20-30 minute drive. Anyway ^_^ we went to the Commons to walk around for a bit and lol, we went to build a bear and he got me a bear which we dressed in hello kitty undies and a blue button up shirt- quite cute i must say. Then we went to Zoo Gallery and they had ugly dolls in a small abundance so I got Toodee, a lavender colored one.

    When we were done walking around we had reservations at the Melting Pot, a fondue restaurant.. D'omg... it was sooo good. We spent like two hours there eating and cooking up foods, and resting up for following courses. We got the Fondue Fusion Big Night Out.. First course is a mediterranean mix cheese fondue with bread, veggies and apples to dip. Then Athenian salad for second course. Third course was the meal of veggies, and a plate of meat to cook ourselves (in a pot of broth with herbs, mushrooms, and burgundy wine) consisting of lobster tail, filet mingon, steak, shrimp, pork, chicken, and two different pasta pieces served with like.. 15 different sauces to dip in. Then the best part was desert fourth course. Milk chocolate sauce with Bailey's Irish Cream mixed in. Cheesecake, pound cake, marshmellows, rice crispies,  strawberries and bananas to dip in it...   They  served just enough of everything for  the two of us to enjoy without being uncomfortable when we left but still being full. It was so perfect. And the atmosphere was incredible.

    After dinner we went to his house and well... that's where my story ends ^_^. We'll just say I'm feeling a whole lot better  than I have over most of the break at home. Especially after recently how things have been going.. and my hamster kiwi dying the other day too. I think it might have been minor depression setting in on me? But all is well now. My head is cleared of  my main problems for the most part (after many a long discussions yesterday with zac and crying fits and such). Thanks to my more than wonderful Zachary. Thank you darlin' <3

The IB luncheon/Diploma ceremony was today. Went just as I figured it would. Everyone had to say something about the hair. The people I expected to be, well... to be douches, were. I was glad to see a few people, but then others were just awkward to talk to. They mostly still have this IB group mentality thing, and most of them still lack social skills with people other than "IB kids".  I notice the ones that do have those skills didnt seem to fit in quite right yet again today at the luncheon (which was cold cut sandwiches, chips and carrots might i add). And they showed out senior ib video again... again. i mean, i enjoyed some of the pictures. but i wasnt in many of them, so it wasnt really much of a reminiscing event for me like it was for the others. lol, but tom kinda of felt like an ass because he realized just how few events i was invited to even though we've been buddies since first or second grade and always had advisory and classes together. tom was still always one of the ones i liked out of the in group though.

meh. i'll add more later.  i am actually getting tired. its a miracle.

  haha, is it sad when your hair most nearly matches your rainbow socks?


Last night was the Frosty the Showman Concert in Pcola. T'was quite an awesome show. Worked our way up to second row from the rail at the stage. Saw Another Animal, Alter Bridge, Papa Roach, and Three Days Grace. Zac caught a tdg bass guitar pick for me (he caught a papa roach one at the last show  we saw  before tool ^_^).

Question though. If you are handicapped in a wheel chair and show up after the first band has already played and everyone is crammed in the floor anyway, wouldn't you sit in disablity seating rather than the floor pit? Some girl and her posse were trying to move forward to the front row with their wheel chair friend after Another Animal played and expected everyone to move for them so that they could all move forward. We all paid the same amount and had showed up hours early for the show to get out places in the crowd. Now, I see handicapped people as my equal. They have every right that I and anyone else has. So shouldn't this girl and her group with the guy in the wheelchair either show up early to get to the front like anyone else, or get handicapped seating as to be able to see everything perfectly (and better than us even), and even to not have to worry about protecting the man from moshing, drunks grinding you (i'll tell you about that one in a sec), and crowd surfers galore? They were using him as their excuse to push forward, and then their friends were moving in around the side of him to get up front as well thus pushing aside the people that waited standing for hours to get their place in the front.

As for the grinding drunks. Half way through the papa roach show this girl and her friend push through the crowd up to the front and are pushing into me and these other chicks to try and get in front of us. Well the one that was pushing was druuuuuunnk. Well, I push back, because I am not losing my spot where i can actually see the show for her, and she leans into me and says, "I like yooou... you're strooong.." and I'm like what the fuck? her friend is texting on her cell and I asked her is she was with her and if so then she needed to do something about her especially as drunk as she was. she let her friend to grind all over the back of the australian girl in front of us and push into me and a military girl next to me. then she was putting her hands behind me between zac and i and zac grabbed her arm and threw it back around, her fighting it and putting force into us, pushing us into our neighbors. then she turns and begins grinding my leg and rubbing on me. i dealt with it because i was the strongest girl around her, and like, lol i was elbowing her in the tits trying to get her to leave. eventually I finally got her friend to do something about it and she talked her into going.... I prolly wouldn't have minded her so much if she hadn't been rude and drunk. But she was just over the top. it sucked cuz I basically didn't get to enjoy nearly half of the papa roach show, my favorite of the bands there. at least I've seen him before...

Then two drunk old hags in skanky outfits were trying to start crap with the guy behind us and trying to push to the front calling the guy a pussy and then saying to the security guards that he was the one starting stuff. everyone had his back though. they left before the tdg show came on luckily.


At least it wasn't drunk old men, cuz those I can't control so much. They are a bit scarier. Women drunk I can at least handle though, lol. 



Laterrrrz.
Love and hugs all!

Ps. I read Alice in Wonderland the other day. I found a quote that basically says be yourself that I wouldnt mind getting tattooed in the idea i was thinking about doing. As soon as I get it drawn up i'll post it.

I keep wondering if anything actually got done at home while I was in Savannah because my parents constantly have me running errands, so much so that I haven't had time to hang out with any of my (few) friends that are still around town other than my Zachary nor have I been able to get up to the school like I promised them I would this week. I just have to silence phone on Friday and go so that nobody can get a hold of me to send me to Destin three times in one day or whatever.  I will gladly take texts though.
None of the other kids I know  that left town are going to be back until around the 15th.  Meh.

The concert is Sunday. I can't wait. I get a real reason to wear my boots and such. Since we are standing in the floor. Moshie time ^_^ yay being pushed around by lots of sweaty music drunk rock fans >.<

It feels like its been forever even though its only been two weeks. I am ready to get out of my house already, haha. And I miss seeing my friends like 2-5 times a day too.

Oh and apparently the place I was gonna work for is gonna be closing down for like three weeks so thus no job. Great.

Zac and I have been doing movie nights lately. List includes  The Birdcage, Orgasmo, Chasing Amy, and Reefer Madness thus far. We will finish art school confidential tomorrow. I finally found some movies he hasn't seen so we are in the process with those this week, lol.

I'm working on and off on an alice in wonderland themed drawing.  i'll take some pictures once i get more of the background done.





Wow, this was quite a random post.  I have more I could say, but I don;t quite know how to say it.

Love you zac!
and hugs to the romies also!







 

So, yeaah, I'll be home Sunday. I am so glad I get my man back Friday. Its going to be awesome. And the car show will be enjoyable. With him ,mom, and dad.

Hehe, I have to do all my laundry friday morning. I am out of quarters anyway. ^___________^



laterrrrr.

Oh, I still haven't had the chance to destroy something like I wanted to the other day. I didn't follow through yet. Anyone wanna help me? Just get mad and break something? Though I am not so frustrated as the other day with it, just because I haven't had a large project to work on since then.  I need to get frustrated just so I can release it completely and get past it. It has to build before I can just rid of it. Unfortunately. 

 

^___________^ did it today. teal, pink and purple. wooters